Good day. I woke up at 5 this morning, since we had to leave for Mom's surgery. I had one brownie before we left. We didn't get home until 3:30. It was a long day. We had to go to Grandmother's house to get a walker for Mom. That surfaced some memories, that hurt. The trees where we last kissed that night. Where the ferris wheel was that night. The spot under the dock, the porch on Grandmother's house where I paced back and forth waiting for Mom to arrive, where I had butterflies in my stomach. All of that. It wasn't so painful seeing it, it was painful leaving it. And then, halfway on the way home, I suddenly realized that we would be passing by his house. I ended up get more and more nervous the closer we got. Probably nervous that I would see him. I didn't, but I did see his van in his driveway. Jeff and I worked out everything. So, that's a relief. Now, just for Dana to call. Just to get this over with. It's been a tired, stressful day. I just need sleep. Which should come easily tonight, since I'm already falling asleep. If something happens soon, I'll write a supplemental blog. Goodnight.
Friday, November 28, 2008
Today’s Song: Fallen by Sarah McLachlan
Heaven bent to take my hand
And lead me through the fire
Be the long awaited answer
To a long and painful fight
Truth be told I've tried my best
But somewhere along the way
I got caught up in all there was to offer
And the cost was so much more than I could bear
Though I've tried, I've fallen...
I have sunk so low
I have messed up
Better I should know
So don't come round here
And tell me I told you so...
We all begin with good intent
Love was raw and young
We believed that we could change ourselves
The past could be undone
But we carry on our backs the burden
Time always reveals
The lonely light of morning
The wound that would not heal
It's the bitter taste of losing everything
That I have held so dear.
I've fallen...
I have sunk so low
I have messed up
Better I should know
So don't come round here
And tell me I told you so...
Heaven bent to take my hand
Nowhere left to turn
I'm lost to those I thought were friends
To everyone I know
Oh they turned their heads embarassed
Pretend that they don't see
But it's one missed step
You'll slip before you know it
And there doesn't seem a way to be redeemed
Though I've tried, I've fallen...
I have sunk so low
I have messed up
Better I should know
So don't come round here
And tell me I told you so...