Ah, hello my old friends. Sorry for my abnormally long absence. But, have no fear! I have returned. Hahaaa. Oh....gods....where do I begin.... Indeed a lot has happened since January. Dana, in fact, does love me. It's a relief, yet....it isn't. I actually don't yet understand it. Since the first day he called me after our break-up, we haven't talked much. He did, however, call on my birthday. That was nice. Hm, we'll get back to him in a bit. Meanwhile, Jacob and I started dating. I do find Jacob more amazing that Dana. He and I talk more, he's more....romantic. Although, there are a few things that remain mysterious about him. Like, what he looks like...his last name...and this last one sounds kinda funny, but what makes him tick. But, I like that I don't know everything about him. It keeps me curious. I can't remember if I have mentioned this before, but I have decided to move to my sister's for the next school year. Everything was going fine. I was happy about it. There is more opportunity there for me, something new. Not to mention being closer to Jacob. But, recently, Dana caught wind of it. He called, which was the first time since my birthday. He was sad, and mad about it. I told him, that when I had agreed to it, I was under the assumption that he wasn't staying here. He told me that it is unlikely that he is going back to Fergus. That makes things a hell of a lot harder. That was another reason I had agreed to move. To give me time away from that memory. Time to really think and focus on other things. But now, knowing that he will be in Holmen while I am not, makes me feel...sad. Either way, I still care for Dana, a lot. I do still love him, and I couldn't hurt him like that. But then again, Jacob...I love him too. But I love Jacob more than I do Dana right now. And...on top of all of this, tomorrow will be the first time I have seen Dana since he left my house before Christmas break...almost three months ago. That will not be easy, and I have all day to prepare. But...you are probably wondering, "what about Jeff?" Well, to answer that question, he and I haven't talked much recently. He hasn't been on a whole lot. So, if something comes up with him, you will know. Stephane's wedding is soon too. And I might even have to be a groomsman. Chelsey and I have been hanging out a lot. She has helped me through difficult times. And, Rissi has too. Even though last night she made me think. By the way, thinking is dangerous, don't ever do it. Let's see....what else... I'm desperately searching for a job right now. My summer job at the Park & Rec is still in place. But I am getting paid more this year J $7.25 an hour. Which is happy making. J Well, I hope to start posting more here, so be on the lookout for more. Goodnight.
