Saturday, August 21st, 2010

Ah…where to start. Today is mostly about Noah, just so you know. It may even be ONLY about Noah. So. And before I even start, if Noah reads this, he might REALLY know it’s him today. And quite frankly, I don’t care. Because I might actually throw around a word today that may scare him. And if you, Noah, decide to run away. So be it. Then I suppose you weren’t worth it. Anyway. Enough of the Terms and Conditions. We’ll start with Sarah. Sarah started dating Logan, who happens to be Noah’s brother. And I’m happy for her. :D But anyway. Sarah says to me today “I don’t think Leighton is good for you” Uhm. Why not..? Well. Apparently she has reasons. But. As I would say, she doesn’t have enough scientific evidence to make a conclusion. And I can understand that. She knows that if she thinks something that MIGHT crush me, it WILL crush me if she says it. Because she knows how attached I am to him. And…the way she sounded, it wasn’t good. BUT she promised to tell me when she got conclusions. Which is good enough for me. But, then Bel goes to me and says things which make me think that, hey, I shouldn’t be paranoid yet. “No, he doesn’t know if you’re his type. And you don’t know either. Because you’ve barely known him without B***e. And while he’s with B***e, he’s focused ON B***e and no one else.” And she went on to ask me how easy it was to get over Dana the first time. And compared it to what’s going on with Noah. “So, just be there for him. It may take a few more rounds with B***e. But he’ll see you’re there.” Hm. Then there’s Travis. He tells me to just make a move and see what happens. Make a move on Noah? How? What happens if I scare him off? That’d be like losing him, forced un-attachment. Which hurts. :( *sigh* This sucks. This uncertainty. Not knowing what exactly to do. If I should give up, wait, or make a move. Giving up is least appealing. Waiting is something that isn’t so hard. Making a move may or may not be a good thing. Waiting would be my first choice. We’ll see what the next few days bring. Anyway. That’s all I really wanted to write about. But if I think of something more, I’ll write more. :P But for now, Goodnight. I won’t add a song today. Because for once, I don’t have one stuck in my head. O.O Oh my. Whatever has the world come to? :P Anyway. Goodnight.