Hello everyone. I realize I’ve been a little AWOL. Sorry. Fear not, I have returned. :D There’s a bit to catch up on. And while I’m a big fan of wasting time, I think I’ll get right to it. And this will be the first post of my blog since putting the link on Facebook, so I might just have to censor a few things. For the sake of the people I’ll be talking about. *evil grin* Anyway, on with things. I leave for AirVenture in 5 days. Which is earlier than normal. 4 days earlier, in fact. I’ll be all by myself over there, too, until Wednesday of next week. Bel, sadly, won’t be coming until Thursday. It’s her and Tony’s 6 month anniversary, so I can understand why she would want to be with him for that. It takes a lot to make it half a year. I mean, look at me and Jacob, just getting past(barely) our year and a half mark. He was going to come to AirVenture with me this year. Until he screwed up and waited too long. His mother signed him up for driver’s ed classes. Which…he has yet to start…*raises an eyebrow* intruiging, isn’t it? So I, of course, got all depressed about it. I mean, this was going to be the first time we got to see each other. And now, it’s not going to happen. But apparently, I was taking it overboard. So I let up on it a little. I still get a little sad over it when I think about it, but life moves forward. I asked him about moving in with me down the line. Of course, he said he didn’t know. It was a sudden, random question, and I was kind of expecting that answer. So I gave him time. And I asked him again about a month or two later. Apparently, it wasn’t really that he didn’t know. He didn’t want to move to a place where people(my two closest friends), didn’t like him. So what? According to him, everyone where he lives hates him. Besides, Bel and Em won’t care as long as I’m happy. Then I learn later, that its more about going to college right out of high school. Stop for a minute. I don’t get to see you this summer. Meaning, that I’ll probably have to wait until NEXT summer, by which time you’ll already be getting ready to go to college in a place that is likley FAR from here, and I won’t get to see you for yet ANOTHER 4 years? No. You have a CHOICE. College? It’s always there. It can wait a year. He says his parents are practically forcing him to go right out of high school. No. By that time, you will be 18, and there is nothing they can do about it. I cannot give you that choice. Right now, we are hanging together by a thread. Things are going less than satisfactory. And if you think this will make it past college, then you will be sadly mistaken. If you decided to choose college before me, than I cannot continue this. … I’m sorry. I’ve appeard to have ranted all that at you. Let’s move to a different subject. My darling Bel. I told you she has a boyfriend. And I’m happy she does. She’s happy she does. But. We went on a road trip. The three of us. To Fond du Lac. To see Cartel, because there were playing at the Walleye Festival. The trip there was ok. And we had time to spare before Cartel played, so we walked around. Key word there: walking. Because Tony appears to be incapable of sitting in one spot for 5 minutes. We’d go over there and watch the water. The three of us sat down. Bel(I belive) and I were completley content to just sit there and watch the water. But. 5 minutes later. Tony gets up and starts walking away. And so Bel has to follow him. And me, with the only functioning phone, had to follow too. And we’d go through this everywhere. And then he started walking on my side of Bel. I have this thing, and Bel shares it, that I have to be to the left of her. Mostly because that’s her good ear, and since I apparently talk quiet, she can hear me better. And so he decided that it was HIS side. And so I was walking behind them. And then the trip back. *sigh* No more ranting about all of that. Suffice it to say, I don’t like him. And I’m glad he’s NOT coming to AirVenture with Bel. Let’s get to the present. Tony’s car is broke. And so he needs her everyday to be a taxi driver. Meaning she has no time to come over. And I’m quite sure that Tony by now HAS the money to fix his breaks. He just isn’t. And there’s something Bel doesn’t want to tell me. That’s prefectly fine, I won’t ask about it. But she thinks she has to tell me, which she doesn’t. I have proof of such. After two weeks of her not being here—Okay. Let’s start back a little. She used to come over almost everyday of the week. Then she started seeing Tony. And came over maybe 2,3, or 4 times a week. Which was okay. Then she started coming on only 1 day a week, Tuesday, NCIS night. Okay, wait a minute. I am not going to be put on the back burner just because you have a boyfriend. :( That’s just not fair. And then she didn’t come over for two weeks, so I flat out said that I thought she was abandoning me. And she came over crying. And she stayed for a while. And didn’t tell me what it was that she didn’t want to tell me. I didn’t care. Because she was here. I have 4 people that I consider close friends at the moment. Jacob, being my boyfriend, is also my best friend. He takes a long time to respond, and so I find it hard to hold a conversation with him very often. Which is quite sad, and an entirely different subject. Bel, my person. My Yune. Has suddenly stopped coming over, and is hardly talking to me, and I usually talk to her about everything. Emily, who can’t ever come over because she doesn’t have a way to get here. And I talk to as often as I can, about everything. And Connor, since we’re going to start talking more often. And we can’t quite talk about EVERYTHING, perhaps eventually. But he’s someone I can talk to. The point of telling you that is to show you why I feel lonely sometimes. With Jacob being in Green Bay, Bel being off somewhere with Tony when she’s not catching up on sleep, Emily stuck in LaCrosse with no way to get here, and Connor in Washington. I mean, I can sit here and IM and text them. But that’s not the same as physically talking to them. *sigh* I bitch too much. I need to look on the bright side. I HAVE friends. I’m leaving for vacation in 5 days. I get to see Sarah there, who I haven’t seen in two years. She’s an amazing person. We came up with the “hat” concept together. (I can’t exactly tell you what that is. Only Sarah, Bel and I know what it is. It’s an AirVenture only concept. :P) And Bel is still going to come to AirVenture with me. So that’ll be fun, too. And then all the cute—scratch that—hot guys that are usually there, too. (Yeah, Em. Caught that. :P) This is the bright side. Hm. Pretty bright. Anyway. I should get going. Em says she need to talk to me. And I should’ve taken a shower 13 mintues ago. So. Goodnight, I hope to post quite often now. Yea yea, I know I’ve said that before. I mean it this time.
DAILY SONG + LINK: It’s All About You by Juliana Pasha.
