Welcome back from vacation. :P To me anyway. I got back yesterday. I wish I didn’t have to leave there. It’s so much fun… And I met this amazing guy. Finally. And I just realized that I mentioned him NOWHERE in my other posts. I would have figured I’d have mentioned him last year… Anyway. That is where we will start. Last year. So. In the campground where we camp, there is always this guy from Illinois that parks across from us. Dad hates him because it seems like he always plays with his car alarm thingy. But last year I noticed this guy with him. I said to myself “Hm. He’s kinda…cute. From here.” So I have this attachment problem. I see a cute guy, and have even the slightest, and I mean TINY, crush on him, I get all emotional. It’s…rather depressing. Not only that, I’m a hopeless romantic. Bel says that they both make me so lovable. And she wouldn’t love me either way. I think it’s annoying because having to become unattached is hell. Anyway. So by observation, which I’m good at, I figured he was gay. Bel and I named him Noah. Because he looked like a Noah to me. And so before I got myself to talk to him, we had to leave. And I never forgot about him because of my stupid attachment problem, and the hopeless romantic part of me was hoping something would happen. But. Then I came back this year. And there he is again. Looking cuter than last year, mind you. And so it brought back my little crush on him. And so on the Saturday before the event opened up, I went out walking along the grounds with Sarah. We rode a tram and all of the sudden, “NOAH! Over there! Sitting down! Quick! Get off the tram!”. So we got off at the next stop. And Sarah says, we should go over there. I’m all like…”uh…but…that would be creepy of us.” So we ended up doing it. And I had my armband, which was rainbow and said GAY on it. I put it on. And we sat like…5 tables from him. I was freaking out. I didn’t want him to think I was creepy and following him. So then we got up after my water bottle got empty, and he got up. And then Sarah says really loudly “Perhaps we should go THAT way.” And she pointed in the direction of the warbirds. Noah then turned and went that way. And so I freaked out more. So we continued on, and decided to put distance between him and us. So I made a circle. I came back to Aeroshell square, where he still was. All of the sudden, I started watching him from the corner of my eye. And he pointed his camera in our direction. And the only thing between Noah and us was this guy on what looked like a towing rig of some sort. And all that was behind me was…a building if I recall. And I’m all like “What was that?! Did he just do that?!” And so then we walked towards one of the planes across from him, and I was talking to Sarah. And all of the sudden he starts walking in our direction and then WAVES. I’m like, “OMG. Sarah, what is he doing?” So then I see Eric, who is really Adam, walking out from the other side of the plane we were by. I was relieved. Because I wasn’t ready for what Bel would call a “random encounter” with Noah. So then I was trying to ignore him the rest of the week. To avoid last year’s attachment and whatnot issues. So Bel comes to me on Friday with this big grin on her face. I’m all like “what did you do?” “I saw Noah. And talked to him” I was all like…crap. “I saw him making his rounds in Protect our Planes over there, and I said to myself ‘fuck it’ and went over and talked to him. I said ‘I know this may sound like an odd question, and I don’t care either way, but are you gay?” And she said that he said yea, he was. “Oh. Well, my friend sorta has this little crush on you.” At this point, I was freaking out. And she said that he said that he wanted to meet me. “I’ll tell him that then.” I looked at her and said “You did what?!” “You heard me.” So he came back to his campsite that day and was looking over at me. I was like…uhm…idk what to do. I’ve never had to meet someone like that before. Most of the time it was someone saying “Here. Talk.” This time it was a “I told him. Now, go over there and talk to him” But…I…! Idk how! I’ve never had to before. So then he came over that night and started playing catch with us. And omg. He has an amazing voice, not to mention his meltable smile… And his laugh… So the next day, he and I waved at each other a few times. And he came over and talked to me once. And he was being a showoff with his camera. *glares* My puny old camera does not clickclickclickclick like I want it to. It click…..click……click……clicks. :/ But anyway. So then Bel goes and tells me “well, maybe it was supposed to happen. Maybe you’re supposed to meet him and forget about Jacob and be happy. Like fate. Maybe you’ll fall in love with him. Like fate. And faith.” *sigh* So adding this into my mind, which is a hopeless romantic, is dangerous. Because it will eventually eat through the barrier I’ve put up. And kill me. And I’ll be crushed. Not that it would be Bel’s fault. The thought would’ve popped in my head eventually anyway. *sigh* So I’m trying to hold that barrier up. Until it looks like I don't have to. And no, I haven’t told you what his real name is, because I DO know it, but since I post this stuff on Facebook. And only the person I’m talking about needs to know who I’m talking about. Because Noah will know its him. Which can be a stupid idea in itself, but risk is part of the game, is it not? Ah well. Patience, child. It will find me. Anyway. I’ll probably make a second post in a little while.
TODAY’S SONG+LINK: Jungle Drum by Emiliana Torrini
