Ah. Another start to yet another boring school year. >.< Tonight’s post will…be about Noah. Ha. Surprise surprise. Mostly Noah, anyway. Because my test last night had some…interesting results. Last night I asked the people that read that blog to “like” the status from Facebook. And I’m doing it again tonight. Only I’m not writing it IN the status. Because our dear Noah “liked” the status. And the thing is, I talked about Noah last night. And if he read it, I’m pretty sure he figured out it was him. Because I said EXACTLY the way he said hi to me yesterday. … And the poke war. Which we did again today. For a little while. And I haven’t scared him away yet. I’m really curious as to how many of my blog posts he’s read. If he knows EVERYTHING. Or if he just read last night’s. This is why I’m doing a double test. Which means everyone who reads this, I want you to “like” the status again. Because if you, Noah, read this again, I might actually have to ask how many past ones you’ve read. Because…if you know ALL of it, then I think we should talk. Anyway. So. Noah. *sigh* I freaked out last night because I went on again after I brushed my teeth and stuff, which was after I put my blog up. And it’s all like…”Em…did I just see what I think I saw…?” And then I was all like “That means he knows he is Noah. Oh my god. Emily. What the fuck do I do next?!” And so she said calm down, basically. Lol. Anyway. Uhm. This is why I’m curious as to how many posts he’s read… I’m rambling on and on about the same thing, only using different words. I apologize. Noah would be perfect. Which is a lie, because no one is perfect. But he’s damn close. From what I know of him, at least. Which is why I want to know him more. But I feel like I haven’t been talking to him enough lately. But half the time, I don’t even know what to talk about. :( Which makes me feel like an idiot. Here I’m talking to the guy I like, and I draw a complete blank. I don’t even know if he’d be interested in me. :/ The uncertainty… This blog is as big a risk as I’m going to take with him for the time being. Most of you know how fragile I am. Look at what happened with Dana? How I’m still beating myself up over letting Jeff go? And how Jacob upsets me so? :/ I don’t intend to add Noah to my list of heartbreaks just yet. So. Until I’m ready, or possibly until HE makes a move or something, I’ll keep my thoughts and impulses confined to here. Every time I sit here and say to myself “Neal, why do you do this to yourself? Why do you get attached to people like that? Why do you go after what you aren’t sure you can even have?” And then what Bel told me pops in my head. “It makes you more lovable. And I wouldn’t love you any other way.” So. I push through it. I’m fragile. Sensitive. Easily crushed… Hm. Anyway. Moving on. Tomorrow, I get paid. Mom goes to the doctor. I get to by SSBB. :D And then I do a little school work. Come back on Facebook. Maybe talk to Noah. See if Sarah is feeling any better… Poor Sarah, things finally hit a snag with Logan… :( Anyway. I think I’m good for tonight. So goodnight world. (Remember. Like the status on Facebook after you’re done reading. :D)
DAILY SONG+LINK=This Is Who We Are by Cartel
