Well. Tonight…ha…well, what would you like me to tell you first? How I’ve realized how creepy my blogs can sound? How I may have potentially screwed that entire thing up? How I’ve been censoring Noah’s name needlessly for the last 2 posts, because of carelessness? Or how I’m not sure what the fuck to do next? So. I’ve realized from someone’s point of view, like, say, Noah? All of this sounds really creepy. Obsessive? Perhaps. In any case, it certainly doesn’t sound the way it comes out in my head. And, to those who I may have ALREADY offended, I apologize. Although, I HAVE stated numerous times that this is only a collection of thoughts. Thoughts that need a place to go, and posting it in a blog on the internet is more…real for me than just writing it on paper and locking it in a drawer. You must read my blogs…without taking anything personally. Take this entire Noah thing, for instance. I say all of that, but I have even YET to try and do anything about it. …heh. Well. Me may as well move swiftly into that subject. But before we go to that one, let’s point out a mistake that, thanks to a certain someone, I realize. And no thanks to the other two certain some ones that didn’t realize it, like me. On the 21st of August, I made a serious and critical mistake. I used Noah’s real name. Leighton. Ha. Stupid me, didn’t THINK that maybe, just maybe, he’d find that. Anyway, that means I don’t have to keep calling him Noah. Now, back to the other subject. He suddenly came to the realization tonight that he might, indeed BE Noah. Go figure. My luck. I ask him if he’s indeed read my blogs, and suddenly a light bulb turns on in his head. “OMG I’M NOAH”. *sigh* I should’ve listened to Bel when she said “Wait and see if HE brings it up first.” And so…the conversation ended with me saying sorry, and leaving. And now I’m sitting here wondering if I indeed screwed up. Which, my luck, I probably did. That’s three of the four subjects. Lastly, what the fuck do I do next? I’m going to end up posting this blog. And then going BACK on Facebook. And putting it there. And he may or may not read it. If he does, I’ll add something at the end just for him. If he doesn’t, he’s probably afraid to. I’ve probably scared him off. :/ I honestly don’t know what to do next. Ok. That’s really all I wanted to put in this blog. :/ Leighton. Look. I…didn’t mean to make you uncomfortable. Or put you in an awkward position. These are just my inner thoughts. I’m sorry if they come off as creepy to you. And…I’m sorry. Goodnight, world. :(
